It’s been awhile. I’m sorry I haven’t been in touch. I was challenged this week to visit you again. I’m not sure how to start, so I guess the best thing would be to tell you what I have been up to since our last chat.
When we last talked, I was a few months out of culinary school and baking cakes for family and friends. When culinary school ended, I didn’t take on an internship, attend career fairs, or even get my resume together and apply for jobs in the culinary field. Instead, I went back to my full-time job of being a stay at home mommy and I baked on the side for family and friends who asked me to, as a way to keep up my skill set. The reason for this was simple, my husband and I had another journey in mind: to grow our family.
When school ended, my daughter was 2 going on 3. My husband and I wanted our kids to be somewhat close in age, so after life got back to normal from the craziness of night school we decided to try to get pregnant. Perfect timing, right? Well, I started charting dates and symptoms, all the while hoping that soon our dream of a big family would come one step closer to becoming true. Months past and nothing happened.
In January of this year, my doctor referred me to the infertility department at Kaiser. In February, I had my first consult. In March, I started the first round of infertility meds. You know what happened next? They worked. April 21, 2013 we found out we were expecting. I don’t think I will ever forget the sheer joy I felt when we found out the news. Our family and close friends were thrilled and our daughter was very excited to be a big sister. We talked excitedly about our future as a family of four. All was well with the world as far as we were concerned.
I soon saw my doctor. You see, I am a high risk case. I had an ectopic pregnancy in 2008 which required emergency surgery. Ectopic pregnancies are dangerous and potentially life threatening, so until one could be ruled out I saw my doctor every week. At first, things went well. My blood work looked great and we were extremely hopeful. We bought a stroller off Craigslist. We looked at names. We longed for December when the baby was due.
Then everything got turned upside down. On May 8, 2013 an ultrasound confirmed our fears. The pregnancy was ectopic. Again. It happened again. Plans were made to come back to the hospital the next day to have an injection that would target the pregnancy and make it go away, so surgery would not be required. At least we had caught it early, right?
That night we dropped our daughter off at some friends house for a sleep over and my husband and I went out to a movie. I made it all the way through the movie, but when we left the theater I doubled over. Immediately we went to the hospital. The pregnancy ruptured. Once again, I faced emergency surgery.
That was 4 weeks ago. Surgery went well and except for some minor complications, I have recovered physically. We can start trying to get pregnant again in a couple months. It will be more difficult this time around. Still, we don’t want to give up on our dream of having another child.
Emotionally, there have been good days and bad days. A lot of good has happened since. I will visit again soon with more details. Just know for now that God is taking care of me through it all.